Good morning friends and family,
In light of Nathan’s most recent hospitalization, I thought this blog post from Nathan’s last hospitalization in 2014 was appropriate.
Please continue to pray for our family, our girls, and Nathan’s health.
From the archives of Lacey’s blog: “Lydia’s Heels”
These past few weeks have put a lot of stress on our family. It’s a difficult thing to understand ourselves — much less communicate to someone else — the reality of living with a loved one who has a terminal illness.
Our life is pretty normal in the traditional sense with the exception of that one thing. It’s not like we hide it or even like we pretend it doesn’t exist. We just do not let it rule our lives, control our hopes and dreams, or limit us in unhealthy ways. So when the reality of what Cystic Fibrosis is takes center stage, it changes things — schedules change, surroundings change. Consistency that was once routine is forgotten.
“I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY AGAIN UNTIL I GET THOSE HEELS! ONLY HEELS WILL MAKE ME HAPPY! I WILL NEVER BE SAD AGAIN IF ONLY I GET MY HEELS!”
We, yet again, are faced with wrestling through the reality that Nathan is in fact sick and we don’t know where that will lead. And that is painful.
I have had to walk through 3 hospitalizations in the 9 years that Nathan and I have been married. The worst part of this experience has been walking with our children through the realization and grief that their daddy is sick. They don’t understand and it’s hard to explain the unexplainable. It’s impossible to explain the sovereignty of God and the ultimate goodness in who He is to those so young. These are things that the seasoned veteran of life spends years wading through. Yet I am asking it of a three year-old and a six year-old.
Our six year-old, Lydia, is a stuffer. She takes all of her feelings and stuffs them down. When we try to pry the thoughts out of her it’s the equivalent of trying to break into Fort Knox. Her emotions are scary and painful and make her feel out of control. So to regain normalcy she acts like everything is okay. Like she’s okay. But she’s not. Things are not okay for her. Her daddy is in the hospital and she is sad and she is scared and she doesn’t know what will happen. But she tries to pretend like…
(you will be taken to LaceySteel.com/Lydias-Heels/)
P.S. I would love to hear back from you. If you have any comments from this week’s email or prayer requests you would like to share with us, our email is: email@example.com. I look forward to hearing from you.
Nathan was hospitalized at the U of M in Minneapolis, Minnesota due to a 10% drop in his lung function. The girls and I are with him in Minnesota. We are incredibly thankful for all of you who have helped us and prayed for us during this time.
Below are the following projects that we currently need finances for. We will update the amount as funds come in.
- Trip Cost: $5000 // Received: $1800 // Needed: $3200
- May 26-June 3 – Lacey and I are teaching at a Marriage Conference in Iquitos, Peru.